Done with my rewrite! Hoping it gets a better grade than the first one! I went for a long run last night and thought about soo much. I have stopped beating myself up about the whole 3.0 race and congratulated myself on making better grades this semester. As long as I progress I will be fine. AND I washed my hair last night! Yall hair washing is the best stress relief i swear!! I love it! 1 more final to go! tmrw at 8 am! Be there or be square!!! Or worse, fail the class.

Soo. working on my rewrite and I plan on having it done tonight. I really hope it's more focused and gets a higher grade. I really wanted an a in the class. I'm kinda beat about my biology exam this morning. I'm thinking I wont have a 3.0 this semester and it's making me sad. All I can really do is buckle down even harder next semester and work my way through it. I've got to get to summer school next semester, thank gosh i'm going home next summer. Good luck.

Aced GOVT!!

Im sure I just aced my government exam. I try not to go back and change answers and I broke the rules and did so today resulting in me missing two quesitons. BUt hey. the bright side of it when I went to canvas and put in just projected grades I can make a D on the exam and still have an A in the class because I did so well this semester. I was still disappointed that I made a C on my music appreciation final even though I was shooting for a C in her pathetic class. It's kind of that Im disappointed I let my hatred of her class lower my standards, and I really need a 3.0. So. This 84 in English.. has GOT TO GO!! hoping the free write grades and Blog does some good as well as the final and the rewrite. Good riddance Auburn.. Until .. wait.. I'll be here all summer. -__- never mind.

grrr

Im so mad that my finals are dragging out so long and my friend's are finishing up so early. It's ironic because I had all my finals in one day last semester and was literally gone in sixty seconds. So. Karma. But Im studying for government right now, and hopefully tomorrow I'll get my rewrite done and I'm sooo ticked off now because I just realized i didn't upload my journal last night! OMG!!

rewrite

Im working on my rewrite right now. It's going pretty well.. It's kind of confusing because I know she wanted us to be able to track our changes so there are so many colors and strikethroughs on my word document. Im not sure if she wants us to give her all of that when we come in on Friday, but I printed out an original. And now I'm still using the track changes function on the document I'll just have to see the final work really. I hope I get a higher grade on this,. Im about to shift the focus a little and narrow it down. Good luck on finals guys.

stale face. -_-

the fact that everyone got to post about being done with the wiki and i wasn't <<<< SOOOOO ready for it to be over . It was definitely a learning experience. I'm about to write my reflection for the journal as fully as possible since I didn't keep much of a journal. I hope everyone is getting into gear for finals. Don't study too hard. Good luck with your rewrites. If anyone wants to chat I'm on the first floor about to be doing some major writing all night. wishing i could sleep in a little tmrw before work.. <<<< and you know chillaxing. I'm great at feedback for papers you guys. and plus Im kinda lonely down here. lol. jk. War Eagle!

4/24

realizing I didn't keep a wiki journal like i thought i would<<< so I'm going to go through my agenda and look at all the assignments i wrote down and try to write off of that and make a nice reflection on the end. I mean it's 5% and all.. but I want that five percent because Im really hoping that this rewrite and final and of course this wiki will bring me up to an A. I really want an A!! and I really want an A in gov't and and A in biology.. Music appreciation.. I gave up on that a long time ago sadly.. so I'll settle for a C.. Pathetic I know but.. That's life. good luck you guys. Happy finals!!

4/22

I just left church and I don't have to work until 5 so im relaxing and doing laundry at a friend's house. I'm so excited that our last class day as freshmen is on Wednesday. I'm off this weekend and I think should just try to take advantage of that weekend and go home, since i won't have another opportunity to go home until august. I hope all is well with everyone. Good luck with finals.

it's friday! 4/20

So.. some idiot told me today was national weed smoking day. Don't ask me why.. Cause I really don't know. But.. it's stupid anyways. Im about to go take a nap probably because I am pooped!! and I would like to go hang out tonight if possible so... you know the usual.. peace in the middle east.. and all that jazz. everyone be awesome today!!

4/18

So i told you guys last night that I co-washed my hair for the first time ever and it feels awesome. I can't believe how soft my new growth is at this point and I let it air dry. It's really interesting when you break old habits and try something new. I think I'll make this a biweekly routine now. And eventually when I take down my hair it'll turn back into a weekly routine. I can't believe It's been five months into my transition. by the time June hits, which is my take down time for my braids I'll be at my half way point and on my one year anniversary I'll probably go through my BC.

Just washed my hair and it feels awesome!!! I've actually never washed my braids before, but since i have to leave them in such an extended period of time... That was a change in effect today. I've been miserable today suffering because I couldnt take my allergy meds. they're so strong they put me to sleep so easily! I need a concert for music app by next friday which is cool. I'm working on it. And I surprisingly got a B on my unit 3 paper but am lacking at attendance. Sorry it's the new allergy symptoms. I'm hungry.. Good night!!

I've got to be the worst blogger ever. Lol. let's get fifty words. But my poor throat is ridiculous. I've been trying to avoid people all weekend in case of it being strep. But I think it was my allergies again. I was so hoarse this morning it was awful! But thanks to more meds.. I am good for now. Adios. I'm tired.

4/13

Im just typing because I don't want to go on a rave about all of my problems right now. I really want to go home because I miss my mommy. I feel like a big crybaby but hey. What can I do about that? absolutely nothing. But does it matter. Well it kind of does matter, but not as much as you think it does. If you're reading this  you just wasted like three to five minutes of your life. Not that it takes this long to read it but because when you're done you'll sit there like O_o? for 1-2 minutes afterwards. This is a strict no judgement zone. Bye.

4/11

so im sitting here chatting with MIKAYLA!!!! and we've both determined my  life = the struggle!! but it's okay. I'll survive. You know, the normal. SO i'm going to get ready to type up a google doc for tj and marcello and go do a wiki jourjal entry. Im trying to keep typing to make sure this is fifty words so it will count. I have got to remember to blog and everything. I think I'm about to go to the park with my friend to clear my head and then go ahead and go back to the library. SO .. Peace in the middle east..

4/10

haven't blogged in five days!! YIKES!! ok. so missed class monday.. I was locked out of my apartment and car!!! #losing. I locked my keys in my car so .. yeah. i'm a loser. but  a nice tow truck man unlocked it for me after hours of soul searching a way to fix the problem for FREE!! like that was gonna happen. I've kind of been moping today but I'm over it. I'm gonna get it going and get back on it we don't have long until school is out so. War Eagle!

4/7

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Okay I'm done.. good riddance fellow bloggers.

4/6

Thank God its Friday!! I'm so ready to be done with school. It's becoming the most painful experience waiting for the end. we have finals coming up **raises the roof.. can't believe we're almost sophomores. i'm so in shock. well kind of not anymore. Camp War Eagle is about to start!! the most exciting part of my Summer!! AAh! I can't wait.

4/5

So. I knocked out my biology test this morning I feel like it was a B. but then again. I thought that the last time. So. Let's just hope for the best considering I'm sitting right on an 80 in that class. I know my lab grade should boost it up quite a bit. But I really want an A. Just like I want in English. So. with that being said. Since my gov't class was cancelled I just took my cwe makeup test and I'm about to work on our Mike Rose assignment. I've already answered 3 questions so. . great. in the meantime you guys take care.

4/4

So my group and I have gotten a game plan down and I can officially say shout out to the wonderful invention of the google doc. I missed my music appreciation exam this morning.. But never worry, I can take it monday. I'm taking my biology test in the morning and hopefully my CWE makeup test as well as a gov't quiz.  I was going to start on my Mike Rose tonight but instead I want to study for my exams and I can tackle Mike Rose tmrw when I get off work. Which will be breezy! :) So good night and happy studies buddies!!

the foolery!

So. . I'm sitting in the library right. Right. Finally finished my Unit 3 paper up and after thousands of uploading issues.. I was successful. Closed that door. Then .. I'm all excited about getting my Camp War Eagle small group partner today (shout out to Sarah Collins!).. Oh. but wait there's more. I find a $40.00 debit to my Regions account that I should've foreseen coming and didn't. SO... now.. finances .. yeah.. what finances? oh. ok. Not to mention rent is due, and this ever so slow IRS is about to have me stuck with a $1382 dollar car note to pay over the summer. Which is "fine" kind of. But I'm still not on my feet so there's one more thing to freak out about. But other than that.. I'm really hungry and I have skit training at 10:00pm and a test at 8 am. that I have not studied for!! #failsauce.. so yeah.. if you think your life sucks right now.. just read my blog. It'll make you feel much better about your pathetic existence. THE FOOLERY!!

bring it in!!

Ok. now it's crunch time. I have pretty much all border line A's and realistically I've given up on music appreciation a long time ago. After a somewhat relaxing weekend with my friends combining studying and breaking just to get my spirits back up after my break down in the library friday... I feel better. I'm ready to go at it again. And hope for the best with the end of the semester coming. I'm trying to close the door on this Unit 3 so I can get pumped for our unit 4 paper and our final. So .. we'll see how I'm feeling after this gets rolling.

I'm really pooped because I just realized in order to incorporate the things Mrs. Pavletic has asked me to and to do all the things that she suggested. I have to start over and write a whole new paper. I'm sitting in this library after sleeping my tired butt off all day and I'm about to have a complete meltdown. Like it's embarrassing. I really and truly want to just cry. and on top of that my so called "professional" has not responded to my multiple emails reminding him to answer his freaking questions!! I can feel my face getting hot right now. I really want to just get out of here and not come back. yall have no idea!!

I dont think my day could get any more stressful. Partially because i'm finally off work and I have a test everyday next week plus our paper! I had car trouble with my old car! Omg dont even get me started on my regions account balance! >_<!! Oh.. And yeah. My head is just alll over the place!! :( idk what to do!!! I'm cool. . I'm gonna go have an anxiety attack or something.. Bye..

Almost forgot to blog!! I definitely got pretty far into my paper today. I'm going to my conference tmrw. I thought I had a free weekend really but.. That's what I get for thinking. Im just going to study for my test tonight and put 1000% effort into my paper for the rest of the weekend and hope for the best. So. I'm going to get ready for bed now and review my notes one last round and pray on this test and paper! :)

miller writing center

I just left my appointment at the miller writing center and I am actually absolutely gun ho and ready to go right now. I'm not leaving this library until i have great interview questions, an awesome body  and conclusion and Like.. i mean it. I have some juices flowing now and the writer's block that has haunted me all month is gone. I really hope I can pull an A on this paper. I'm so determined to get my 3.0 gpa back like it's killing me. But with CWE and everything it's getting harder but whatever. I have to get my priorities straight on my own no one can do it for me . Good luck to my fellow procrastinators!! War Eagle!

Random Dancing!!

so some random dancing for you all. I have officially made 2 appointments for the miller writing center just now. I feel ridiculous for not having utilized it already, but hey. This paper made me do it. I'm shooting for the stars again i guess. Um, I bought some new loreal true match makeup today and IT IS AWESOME!! I swear!! so.. can't wait til I get the matching powder etc. :) that's cool I guess. I'm about to pull a real all nighter now. Last night I legit half axxed that rough draft. SO I'm setting up an interview for this week and I'm about to work my butt off. SUch a procrasatinator. smh. So, may the force be with you and I as i study my CWE Knowledge and write this crummy paper.

all nighter

I know I've complained enough.. but here I am at 11:30 pm. writing a rough draft. and Rough is an understaatement to what this paper is. I have no direction whatsoever still!! but you know what .. I'm just gonna fake it til I make it. And try to keep on these blogs and what not and hopefully pull through with an A that I so desperately want and need. Like my life depends on it! literally! So. into the night I shall work. Caribou is about to be my new best friend tonight. Good luck my fellow procrastinators.

I'm so tired! And I've been sick and.. i'm worried about this ridiculous excuse for a paper so much.i can't wait for this to be over!! I can tell it won't be my best paper already so I have absolutely no motivation to even complete the assignment. tomorrow wok will be the epitome of 21st century slavery.. The college edition.. Well.. once I think about it.. That started in june when I moved here. Oh well. I'm going to bed. .

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I'm working on this hell of a paper and it's the worst assignment ever!! Like legit. But I feel really defeated if I don't do well on this, (I'm a communications major) so like this is big for me to be able to take these curve balls like this that I'm not really good at. I'm actually emailing some one about my interview now. SO.. let's hope that all goes well. I'm so upset that this paper is not already 2 pages long yet.. it's like. 1 paragraph; I have a new topic on censorship. I feel slightly better about it. I wish I had someone I could interview to do another idea I have but.. it's impossible. Like this paper would be done if I didn't need this whole interview component of it. really.. that's the most inconvenient part about it. But I'll stop yabbing.. and continue.


Let the learning commence..

a challenge

Ok.. So now this paper just got intensely personal. I'm a communications major and I love writing and everything about it. And I just can't bring myself to write trash ! So I've now been challenged by the lovely Angel sitting next to me to make an A on this paper since she's read my last two papers with me. And it just got so personal!! Hopefully this challenge will make me work harder on this paper. I really want an A it's a must!! so I have two papers up pitching ideas as they come and comparing and contrasting and combining it 's insane actually. but I'll keep you updated. bye good luck!

So. I've finished a long shift at the job today..and i'm sitting here watching harry potter. :) still clueless about this paper but I promise monday i'll probably be singing a whole nother song (i hope).. I'm tired but i'm alive! ^_^ yay! Lol. Whatever. Have fun guys!!

I'm tired and I can't believe it's just friday! I'm doing this and I actually need to go post a response to canvas too. Hope that's not too late. I hope everyone has had fun and come home safely from wherever you may have been. Oh yeah happy st.patrick's day.. whatever that means.. And uhp yeah.. This paper is the official recipe to "fail sauce"

This has to be the absolute worst assignment ever for me!! I can't concentrate on it at all! I really just want it to be over. I'm writing my worst paper yet right now as we speak. I hope everyone is enjoying their spring break in the meantime. I'm dreading this week and this rough draft which is practically nonexistent. -___- I really hate this paper! I have ideas that I cant back up b/c of the stupid interview component, and it's frustrating!!! I should go get ice cream now... :/ bye!

I'm so tired. I've actually slept all day and i'm really starting to get homesick. But I cant go home just yet. So. I'm working on my paper to kill time and it's hard! It's extremely hard.. I thought about doing plagiarism, but idk how I would do that. So now I'm thinking about the advertising agent of my major and the knowledge of falsity of these ads. but the hardest part is going to be getting an interview done!! I'm trying to channel my creative juices right now.. It's not really working but hey, i'll get there. I want to make an A on this paper as well .. And with the harder scale i'm starting to worry about this particular paper. But.. :/ I guess I'm cool for now. Bye! be safe!

I'm so excited I have a 90 on my unit two paper!! I worked so hard on it! I met two people at my plus luncheon that that I may be able to get to help me with my ethical issue. I'm definitely starting on that tomorrow. I hope you guys are having an awesome spring break and enjoying yourselves. Be safe BEFORE ANYTHING!!! And dont forget to blog!!! ^_^ thanks you guys! War EAGLE!!

STARVATION

I'm really drained right now because I'm starving. But I'm happy I have a part time job at Walmart now! and I'm getting a new car soon. So I'm super happy about that. I'm going to the Disney Presentation tonight, because I've just randomly made up my mind I'm going and I'm going to work for Disney post graduation. Well, it's an option I would like to pursue anyway. I'm upset that Regions won't let me withdraw any money until midnight tonight and I'm once again STARVING! and I"m so sick of ramen noodles it's ridiculous. And I can't pay my phone bill until they let me access my money so.. I'm fundless, phonless, and food less. Tiger Card Donations accepted within the nextt 20 minutes I'm on the second floor of RBD behind the reference desk. lol. no seriously though. I'm about to attempt to work on my paper. But I really don't have any juice left in me right now. So, let's see what I can do I guess. Bye! War Eagle!!

Ethical Issue and then some

So.. clearly I'm like the world's biggest ding bat. Of course my ethical issue can be Plagiarism!!! I'm a communications major (probably  a soon to be public relations major but that's another story) and they go hand in hand anyway. So plagiarism is definitely my issue. And since I have absolutely nothing planned for spring break I'm going to work on this and register for classes.
Speaking of registering for classes, I was super excited to see about this Disney internship that I filled out the application and I'm planning on going to the meeting tomorrow night. You guys should look into it, it seems pretty cool. I know my mom is gonna freak at the thought of me moving to Florida in the event that I get offered a position and am able to go in the fall. So I'm going to have a nice little chat with  my advisor and with this presentation person. Um. By the way if you didn't know the presentation is tomorrow at 6 in Haley 2370. This is a golden internship opportunity that can lead to a more professional internship catered to your major in Florida. I'm super excited now. I have a topic for my paper, I have somewhat of a future career plan, and a fun experience lined up. I hope every one has a great spring break! Don't forget to register for classes!!

i have no clue what to write about for our unit 3 assignment. I'm kind of behind on a lot of things. Right now, I'm taking one of the most ridiculous online defensive driving courses and it's about to drive me crazy. i went to my first Miracle LEague meeting today, I'm super excited about that. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically a baseball league for the disabled to be able to play. They're sponsored by Major League Baseball. It's pretty legit and it's located at the Opelika Sportsplex if you would like to volunteer to be a buddy. A buddy partners up with a kid and plays baseball with them. Also. . flapjack fest is Wednesday March 7 at 6 pm in foy food court.. If you want to come it's all you can eat pancakes, sausage, bacon and drinks for $5.. I'll have tickets in class Monday if you guys want any! It's supports a really good cause! There's also a silent auction at the Flapjack fest so if you're looking to score some signed gear or auburn crafts there's some amazing stuff there!!
War Eagle

just stuff.

Ok hi guys! I"m super tired and I haven't blogged in two days, but I'm back with all crises somewhat resolved. If anybody doesn't mind giving me a rundown of Wednesday's activities and what not I would greatly appreciate it.
On another note, I'm just getting off of work and it was a tigerette and tiger host farewell dinner. I was listening to their speeches about their experiences and I started to freak out because in  a few weeks that'll be me crying to my old senior teachers when I go back to my old high school after school is out. Not only that but like when Camp War Eagle is over and what not and God knows how emotional it'll be when it's time for me to graduate! But with that being said , I want to say everybody live for the moment, like each and every one. Even the stressful ones you don 't think you're gonna get through because you're not alone. God is always with you, even when there's one set of footprints in the sand.
Good night you guys and war Eagle!

I am not my hair.. the finale

I Am Not My Hair

I was seven years old when I got my first relaxer. I remember the day before, standing in front of the mirror pulling on the loose strands around my ponytails and watching them bounce back tight and fast. I have three older sisters and a white best friend, her name was Katy, and they all have long, straight hair. When I asked my grandma why my hair wasn’t like theirs she replied, “Child, cause Shae nem got a perm and you got nigger hair. Honey you ain’t white like Katy.” I didn’t really know exactly what that meant, but I knew it wasn’t “good hair”. I didn’t have a choice in the matter of relaxing my hair then.  I watched her open the box of Just For Me and about an hour later, I pulled that strand and it didn’t bounce anymore. My ponytails swung everywhere with every movement I made, longer than I’d ever seen them before. I let out a sigh, a breath of relief- my grandma wasn’t calling my hair “nigger hair” anymore. Why not though? After all it is just hair right?

            It is twelve years later, and I now have a choice in the matter. I Am Not My Hair, so I am going natural. That’s right you heard me loud and clear. I have a choice to make this lifestyle change that will make old routines null and void and force me to shape another way of presenting myself. It makes me limitless, flexible, it makes me natural because it makes me… me. It was always “my house my rules” where I lived, so even in high school I had limited input on what I did with my hair. It was always, “Here, go down to the shop and get this done- Don’t you dare cut your hair that short- Don’t color your hair that color! What’s wrong with you?” Oh please, let it go.

It is because of people like that that I am going natural. No, I’m not some freaky activist or a member of some organization determined to take out some hair manufacturing company. This isn’t some 21^st century Black Panther hair movement. We who are in transition just want our hair and our lives back. We want back what most of us had taken from us when we were younger because nobody appreciates what we’re born with anymore. You deprived us of this appreciation because it’s something you didn’t value and you never quite gave us the chance to pick a side. I’m not following a trend, I’m following an instinct. It just so happens that at this point a lot of women are having the same instinct as I am. We’re not followers, we’re becoming leaders. We’re leading you to feel pretty in whatever form you see fit.  As a matter of fact if you don’t want to feel pretty at all we’re cool with that too. If you want long, straight hair, go for it, but don’t knock us for thinking it’s overrated. Long hair does not make pretty hair, and pretty hair does not necessarily mean pretty people.

            You can insinuate that I won’t look as professional as you, go ahead, we’ll just shoot it down. Just because it took you $200.00 and three hours in a chair to pull your look together as opposed to my splash of water and a hair accessory does not make you the better candidate. You think our hair is unruly; we find your disgust at what you once had amusing. After all, you did have to start somewhere, or has that perm fried too far down into your brain? What I have in my head is not reflected by the strands that grow out of it. I’m working just as hard as you, curly hair and all. I stay up all night making sure the numbers are crunched; the paperwork is finished, and still manage to leave an apple on our bosses’ desks and a smile on our client’s faces. We are no different than you. I know the media has standardized beauty so you look at us as awkward because we’re different than what you see on TV, but I promise the only difference is in the choices behind this life we live.

How about we break the divide now and call it a truce, and let’s respect the natural hair. No more “nigger hair”, no more sideways looks when we walk in the shop for a trim and wash, it’s just hair. It doesn’t make me pretty. It doesn’t make me superior to you, and it doesn’t make me inferior to you. Can we accept the fact that we are not our hair and just move on? Relaxed and natural alike we are who we are and nothing can change that but ourselves. Just to think, in nine more months or so, I’ll be able to pull that strand of hair and watch it bounce like it used to when I was a child. Only this time I won’t think it’s unnatural and this time I won’t mind it making me look different, because I am different. And despite my hair and what you think about it, I’m going to make a difference. I won’t let my hair define me, because in this life it matters to me who I am while I’m here- and I damn sure won’t be my hair.

Sick!!

Hi guys!! Trying to get something down for today seeing as I haven't blogged in a few days and it feel like this semester is running from me!! I keep getting in such a shock that we are at midterm pretty much and we're almost done with our freshman year. Today I actually don't feel good. I don't know what exactly is wrong, but I want to take this oppurtunity to say don't stress yourself sick like I probably have. And you know take a second to evaluate what you're eating. I mean I understand our ridiculous meal plan forces us to eat around campus and realistically there aren't very many healthy dining options but we have millions of calories offered to us everyday here. Just you know take a second to do a few push ups or sit ups or something you know. Don't obsess about it but try to stay healthy, you'll miss fewer classes I guarantee you. uu.. GOod luck on your papers and I hope all is well.

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OK. so clearly judging by the blogs I'm not the only one totally burnt out on school right now. I'm so tired and it's not like a sleepy tired. I get plenty of sleep and I take naps. But I'm just itching for a break.  I don't have any spring break plans. I really hope I'll be working by Spring Break actually. I just have a lot of personal issues going on right now and they are all like.. ridiculous. like just go away. I'm done with my paper essentially I'm about to do another sweep through for errors and what not but I'm glad that's over. I also checked the policy guide a second ago and realised I need to sync all my work for our final portfolio so I can get credit for all my work. I have some assignments on my laptop and some just on a jump drive. I'm going home to syn it so I'll have one on the jump drive and one on my laptop. I suggest you guys get that started and collected up so the final portfolio won't be so stressful. Uuhm. Good luck to everybody, I hope your papers rock, and War Eagle.

"perfect, perfect, perfect!" (v. not adj.)

Well today I worked on perfecting the grammatics of my paper. I saw a lot of pink in my last paper, and that stood for the weird wording and arrangement type problem. So I went through my notes I write on my assignment sheets and in my notebook and I went through my paper to find more clear ways to word things. I found a few things that needed to be simply switched around and I made sure that I still had that same kick in it that it had when I read it in my conference. I went to the purdue owl online and cross checked my MLA format for my paper to try to minimize on my paper formatting errors. I saw on the syllabus that the heading should not be in the "header" and  it is NOT double spaced; I noticed it was crossed out on my last paper so I corrected that. I went through and found a few grammatical errors. So I think I'll wait til Thursday to take a last run through of if and see if I can find any awkwardness. I'm actually waiting for my friend to get back to the library to read and proofread it again. You know an extra set of eyes always helps. So. . to each his own I guess. I'm in the home stretch right now, just perfecting and polishing, and hoping to have an "A" paper with this one.
Good luck you guys,
War Eagle!!

Peer Review/ Conference

My peer reviewers went overall well, I looked at your feedback and you guys and Mary both pointed out the same thing. I was really excited when she said she liked my paper. I was extremely happy. All I need is a few minor changes and to check the grammatics of it all. I'm so happy that I did not procrastinate on this paper- not that I procrastinated on my last paper- but I really feel like it's progress from the last paper. Which is good because we're expected to progress by Mrs. Pavletic, and I just expect to progress personally. I made an 80 on my last paper, not too shabby, but once I looked over it I totally understood where she was coming from and I saw what mistakes I made basically in just proofreading sentences in between revisions so that you don't leave a sentence in from a concept that you wanted to remove. I'm definitely going to be on the lookout for that. The only way to go from here is up, so I leave you guys with this and just make sure you get an outside reader to look at your paper, even if it's a total stranger- it's actually even better cause maybe they won't care about hurting your feelings. Good luck you guys!

uh oh.. forgot about the structure >_

I know I told you guys how much I love, love, love my manifesto- but I was brought to a slight halt today in class when Mrs. Pavletic gave us the structure of the paper. Mine is similar to that I think, but I don't think I exactly nailed the structure down completely. So now I'm about to have to go back through and edit and move and possibly shift things to meet those requirements. Don't forget about the little details like that guys, make sure you keep that in mind. It's a real pain in the butt to have to go back. I'll probably be at every office hour session next week to make sure I get as much feedback as possible. I suggest you guys do the same. Good luck! War Eagle!

I love my manifesto!!

So I used the text and I really focused on my manifesto last night and I absolutely love it. I think it's creative and personal and I think it really shines light on how I feel. Im really excited for Monday to get the peer review done and to see what everybody thinks about it. Plus I want to see my last paper but... hey whatever.. no pressure. I read my before and after paper, and I got someone from outside to read it and they wholly agreed it was much better and much more me and more focused. I'm really glad I looked at the textbook for goodness sake that's what's it's here for. I really really can't wait til you guys get a hold of it. Just to see your honest opinions, and please be honest. I may only like it because it's a major upgrade from the garbage I originally typed, but it's cool, tell me that. it's anonymous. lol. But really.. Once again.. good luck. War Eagle!! Have a fun, safe weekend!

Use the text!!

If you cant tell by my title of this blog I'm going to suggest you guys use your textbooks! When I read the introduction and conclusion assignment I randomly got a surge of ideas in midclass. Just because my original introduction employed one of the techniques mentioned in the text, but I just wanted to perfect it and make it an even better more focused story to lean into. I really think it's good at this point. I'm going to write a seperate paper  of the ideas I came up with in class today and get somebody else to read it and see which one makes up the better paper. I honestly have my heart set on the second introduction so I hope they don't shoot it down. But guys, there is some really awesome information in the textbook so USE IT! you paid for it anyway right?

just another free write.

So right now I"m in government not really paying attention, but I'm thinking about my manifesto. It's cool though, the class is pretty easy. Thanks to everyone who thinks my manifesto is pretty solid. But i still ran into quite a few writers blocks yesterday. I keep asking rhetorical questions in my manifesto and I'm trying to avoid that. But it's really hard. I think it's from me watching those videos. I think what I'm going to do is start off asking a few rhetorical questions related to the issue I'm promoting and then use the rest of my paper to pretty much answer and put forth my beliefs. I think that's a pretty good format. Class is out at 10:45.. so I'm pre-prewriting actually because i'm going to have to do another free write to get started on my paper later on tonight. Good luck you guys.

FOCUS

OK. I'll be the first to admit that I forgot about the change in the assignment last weekend but it's okay.. There's still hope! I'm trying to bring the focus of my paper down even more narrow so I can actually type something that I don't think is pure bull crap right now. I'm sure the whole thing I wrote Friday was pure crap. It's really all over the place. I'm sitting here with a loud ssticky note on my screen that says FOCUS with smaller notes with topics to touch on. TRY that technique I swear it works whether you're tempted to  check your TL on facebook or twitter, or you just don't remember what you're talking about in your paper. So right now I'm doing the infamous free write!! I swear I'm going to get back to some juicy stuff as soon as the wheels get churning fast enough. So I've narrowed my topic down to "going natural" pretty much. Some ideas i have as far as what to talk about is explaining it as a way of life that varies based on the individual. Some females feel that going natural means no relaxers and chemicals dyes, no makeup the whole nine yards, while some feel like no relaxer- but hair dye is cool and they still wear make up or some form of organic makeup.
It's really weird actually.
Another think I'm thinking of talking about is when I started getting relaxers- totally not my own choice- and what made me decide to switch; What natural is for me and what I hope to gain from going natural- and what I want people who don't favor the natural look to know about my decision.. basically I'll tell them in a nice way that their opinions doesn't really matter.. I'm gonna nap it up anyways. But I think I'm ready to go at it again. so good luck and WAR EAGLE!

Free Write

Ok. now I'm starting on my actual paper right now. I'm using this blog as a sort of free write before I start. I'm just coming up with some ideas as far as what exactly to say. I know I want to touch on the divide of natural hair vs. relaxed hair, because people make it like it's a standard of beauty to be one or the other. when in reality- you're beautiful no matter what. It doesn't matter what you do with your hair, it's a material thing in a way. I know hair is extremely expensive- Remy brand and just the process of getting it done is so time consuming and whatnot. I feel like people should look beyond the hair and outer appearance of people before tey judge them. For instance,  every interview you go into you are being judged on your appearance, the upkeep of your hair is indicative of your cleanliness and hygiene in a way. The guy with the straggly beard and long hair may be the best for the job but he looks unprofessional as opposed to the guy with the clean line up and short cut.
Just like if a girl walked into an office with a wild funky pink mohawk or an untamed fro- people look at them differently. Let our hair express the voice within not scare you away from us or give you the grounds to pass judgement.
I think I'm loose enough to start writing now. So good luck with your papers you guys!

"Who's tryna be white?"

Okay.. back to the story right? This all started pretty much with Madame C. J. Walker.. who began making products for black hair, in order to get it into a manageable and healthy state. However, it was taken as she wanted it to be seen as black women could have hair just as good as white women. . But what does it matter really? Hair is just hair right? WRONG.. not today.. We have advertisements all around us that make straight long hair the standard of beauty, while our natural hair, hair color, etc. is accepted as flaw. I watched a documentary by Chris Rock on hair, he basically travelled around the world from beauty shop to barber shops and even all the way to India, where their hair given away so selflessly for religious purposes, is worth more than GOLD!! can you believe it? there is a scene where a man tries to sell a hair buyer Indian hair and he wants to pay top dollar, but when presented with African hair- he is like this is just worthless. This is ridiculous.
But with the airing of this documentary- the battle of relaxed vs. natural goes rabid!  these women feel like "I can't do natural it's not for me". or those that are natural feel like women who wear relaxers are disowning their heritage and being "slaves to the white man standards of beauty". How many white women do you see trying to get their hair done like a black woman?-- go ahead.. EXACTLY- but how many black women do you see down their hair and call it (excuse my language) "nigger hair" because it isn't soft, smooth, long, etc. so they cover it up with someone else's hair. And you would think that white people would make the most money off of this.. WRONG! the Asians do- go figure.. O_o?
 I hear so many girls who experience the "big chop" ( the process in going natural when after about six months or more of no relaxer you chop all remaining relaxer off your hair resulting in an afro of some sort.) say they felt released from a hair prison. What does that even mean?
My motive for going natural stemmed from research on the products that I was using to maintain my straight hair. The chemicals in a relaxer are so strong and so damaging I just cant bear to use it anymore. I want this for the sake of healthy hair.. not because I feel like I'm a slave in any way form or fashion. I will just have stronger, more versatile, hair. That doesn't mean I will never wear a weave again in my life. It just means I want versatile healthier hair to go with a new way of life and reflect my personality that differs day to day. simple as that. Is that too much to ask?

I'll try to give  yall some pics relating to what I post daily.. here are a few advertisements that I've seen that can reflect back to this post..

MANIFESTO: I AM NOT MY HAIR

Hello fellow classsmates and readers!
If you haven't noticed the excessive amount of melanocytes in my skin, I am an African American. (humor) I recently decided to do my manifesto for unit two on my beliefs on the rapidly rising issue of hair equaling beauty, and long hair vs. short hair and natural hair vs. relaxed hair in the black community. It's becoming something so controversial and it's in a sense tearing the black community in a divide. (how typical) but it's an issue that I'm now currently identifying with as I decided to transition after my last relaxer in November. It's been 3 months and I've never felt so controversial about such a topic. You would think it's really simple but hair has been such a major source of "beauty" amongst us that we don't typically understand what type of connection we've created with the two that makes it impossible for us to part with it.
Just last weekend my guy friend asked me to cut his dreads off, for his own personal reasons. He started the task himself and wasn't able to finish after cutting like 6 dreads, and it was a shock to me and him as well. So I cut them off and his reaction was out of this world, he felt like he wouldn't be accepted, no one would think he was handsome anymore and it made me think.. I have go to talk about this because even though it's common among women, it affects men too.
Follow this!! it'll be really interesting I swear! I'll tell you where it all started!!

Peace, Love, and remember you are not your hair!!

introduction

Hi my name is Alethia Russell! I'm a freshman here at Auburn University and my major is communications. I'm from Gadsden, Al and I like Ramen noodles, fried chicken, and cornbread!! Enjoy!